Excerpt from Soco Chico – a novel by Greg Swimelar

When Ali had a serious decision to make, he usually went to the alcove where he spent most nights.  He had only been kicked out of the alcove two or three times in the last couple of years.  For him, it was a safe, secure, and personal place – the closest thing he knew to what a home might be.    

 When he was about to leave Taieb’s shop, Taieb stopped him and said, “Wait a minute – you can’t go out like that – people are looking for you!”

 “Yes, but I know some short cuts,” said Ali.

 With that, Ali took off like a jackrabbit, heading up one of the narrow alleys and down another, keeping his eyes open for anyone who might do him harm.  When he got to the lane that led to the Gran Teatro Cervantes – there were many people, so he hid behind a fat lady who was selling melons, until he felt it was safe – then he ran as fast as he could to a point across the way from the alcove to make sure no one was following him – then made a mad dash for the alcove. 

After he caught his breath, he checked to see if anyone had disrupted the few items he cherished.  His most valuable possession was an empty Michael Jackson CD case with Michael Jackson’s picture on the front.  He held the CD case in his hand for a long time – just admiring the photo, and then he sat down on a piece of cardboard and started to think about his big decision.  

 He realized if he helped Bahia, everyone in Tangier would hear about it and he would be a public disgrace – going against God like that.  He’d have to walk down the street feeling shameful – and he’d never have a chance to become a shoeshine boy, or a bartender, or play football for the national team.  All of this was weighing on his conscience.  He was feeling depressed, which was unusual for him.  He had been able to keep his spirits up even when he didn’t even have a centime in his pocket – and when he lost his sandals and had to go barefoot for two weeks.

 Then he told himself that it wasn’t really his fault about going against God because he never had anybody to bring him up right and teach him about religious things, and never had the chance to go to a Koranic school and learn about God’s rules.

 Then he realized that he was just making an excuse because he had heard men talk about these things in front of the mosque, or when he was begging in sidewalk cafes, or late at night asking for handouts in bars.  He often heard men talking about the finer points of Islam and what ladies were supposed to do and not do.  He figured that he knew enough of the rules that would qualify him for hell’s fire if he didn’t make the right decision.

 He was so scared he started to sweat, so he got down on his knees and touched his forehead to the ground as he had seen men do when they pray.  He started to ask God to give him the courage to go back to Hakim and help him find Bahia and the others – but the words wouldn’t come out.  He wanted to tell God that he was going to do the right thing – but deep inside he didn’t think he could do it.  He felt stuck between two walls and the sides were closing in on him.

 Finally, he made a decision to write a note to Hakim to let him know that he would help him separate Bahia from Jack.  Although he didn’t know how to write, he figured he could find a scribe that would write it for him.  He felt good about this decision because it meant he would not have to go to hell – and he was relieved.  He shivered when he thought about how close he had come to going to hell.  Finally at peace, he fell asleep in the alcove.

He had a dream.  He was with Bahia and Jack.  Bahia was hugging him and Jack was teaching him how to wrestle.  They went together to visit Si Taieb’s family and he got his hands washed, and then they ate couscous, and he took a nice bath every day, and knew how to wash his hair.  When he woke up he was disappointed that it was just a dream. He thought about the football uniform and the football shoes – but what he really wanted was a warm family that cared for him.  He knew that Hakim and Mustapha would never care for him and Hakim was probably lying about the football uniform.  His heart was with Jack and Bahia, Troy, and Taieb’s family.  He decided that if Jack and Bahia were going to hell – he would go with them, and since he was going to do such a bad thing, there was nothing more to lose — so he decided to become an outlaw and join up with Jack, Bahia, and Troy – if he could only find them. 

Nuance Could Save Us

Nuance could save us.
A gun is not a gun.
An assault weapon is not
A shotgun, a six-shooter or a .22.
The Eskimos have 42 names for snow.
Snow is not snow.

God is hijacked
By the zealots
Of every culture.
Rules and man-made “women-controlling norms”
Are not required
By any Great Spirit or Over-Soul.
We are in the parking lot of cultural mythology.

Touch the brake
Downshift with the clutch
Step on the gas
Because no one knows for sure.

We can thrive without being hypocrites and charlatans.
Through giving,loving,sharing,forgiving,understanding,appreciating,
And looking beyond our tribe and our nose.

Conflict or Maturity

 

My ego is looking for your form,

 

While I struggle to see your essence.

 

Charlemagne

He walked around the house

With a piece of cereal stuck to his chin.

His glasses were smeared with a cloudy substance,

And had a band-aid covering one of the nose rests.

His fly was half unzipped and part of his shirt tail

Was hanging out of his zipper.

He told us again and again of the basketball games

Played in the former theatre with columns.

A player had to avoid the columns as he ran down the court.

And could do anything to inflict harm on another player

As long as he used his non-ball playing arm.

We had to sit through his story

About tagging the guy out at home

And how they won the championship.

We thought there was something wrong with him.

But we discovered there was something wrong with us.

The War Disease

 

Shell shock – WW I

Battle fatigue – WW II

Soldier’s heart — Korea

Got fucked up — Vietnam

Post traumatic stress disorder — Iraq

Post traumatic stress injury — Afghanistan

She Ain’t Coming

 

You can wait there as long as you want

But she ain’t coming.

You can pace back and forth.

But she ain’t coming.

You can look at your watch a million times,

But she ain’t coming.

You can try to reach her by phone,

But she won’t answer.

You can send a hundred text messages,

But your phone ain’t gonna chime.

Morocco: My Peace Corps Experience

My 1st month In Morocco I was in a car accident.  We flew over a cliff and landed in a tree.  My two companions were hospitalized.  I was lucky.

 The 2nd month I was in a train accident.  We hit a dump truck that was stalled at a crossing.  Three people were killed.  Everyone on the train was lucky.  The train did not leave the rails.

The 3rd month I wrestled in a professional match at the Teatro de Cervantes in Tangier against The Hope of Tangier.   It was fixed, except when my opponent thought I hit him too hard.  Then it was real.  I won.  I was lucky.

The 4th month I received an order to report for induction into to the US Army. The notice said it was the greatest fighting force in the world and I would join 3 million others.  My induction was postponed so I could complete my two year Peace Corps commitment.  I was lucky.

The 5th month I met fellow teachers Abdu and Jaowad — whom I called Abby Hoffman and Jerry Rubin.  They got me into all kinds of trouble but luckily I was never detained by any security agencies.

The 6th month the students at Abdu’s, Jaowad’s, and my school went on strike and we had to hang out in the teacher’s lounge and drink mint tea.  It was a nice break.

The 7th month our students called off their strike because they were tired of being beaten by the police, so we had to go back to work.  It was good to see the kids again.

The 8th month the flag ship of the 6th Fleet pulled into Casablanca and I gave 170 sailors a guided tour of Casablanca.  I was authorized eight Moroccan military trucks with drivers.  The sailors were happy.

The 9th month I fell into a forbidden relationship with a Moroccan girl who convinced me to caste our fate to the wind and thumb our noses at the authorities.  We were in love.

The 10th month the Moroccan Army attacked the King’s birthday celebration even before he had a chance to blow out the candles.

The 11th month my Moroccan girlfriend and I were stopped at the border and had to sneak into a hotel, concealing our differing religious backgrounds.  We were allowed to stay as long as we agreed to quietly leave the hotel before sunrise.

The 12th month the secret police at my neighborhood cafe accused me of being a spy.  I told them that “at least we are in the same business.”  They said, “Yeah, but we are in our own country.”

The 13th month my girl friend and I crossed the strait and got married in Gibraltar.

The 14th month the Peace Corps transferred me from Casablanca to a small city where my wife had to pretend she was from the Caribbean — and refrain from speaking Arabic.

The 15th month I went to Fes to visit my in-laws and to meet my mother-in-law for the first time.

The 16th month I bought a 1952 BMW police motorcycle — and my wife and I cruised the coast.

The 17th month we went to Tangier and sipped wine on John Brugger’s roof as my wife sipped on Oranjina.  We also visited the man with the red fez who ran the Mobil Station.

The 18th month I went to Marrakesh to give the baccalaureate exam to students and to see the snake charmers at the Square of the Dead.

The 19th month we got sunburned on the beach at Mohammedia and had to scrap tar from our toes.

The 20th month we danced half the night at one of Driss Alaoui’s famous parties.

The 21st month I helped the Moroccan National Wrestling Coach teach children from a shanty town how to wrestle.

The 22nd month my wife got pregnant and we took many walks in the park and ate wild cherries.

The 23rd month my wife and I decided to call our baby Safia if a girl, and Michael if a boy.

The 24th month Jaowad took us to the airport so that my wife could get through immigration to leave the country.  He served as her “older brother.” We flew to Paris and spent four nights at the Paris Hilton overlooking the Eiffel Tower before flying to New York.

My Life — Don’t You Wish

My childhood was a kaleidoscope of paralegal experiences.

My father was a modern slave

Posing as a drum-playin’ factory workin’ chicken farmer

From a part of Pennsylvania that just recently got electricity.

He was partial to low grade blow-ups

And had a penchant for hunting two-legged dear,

As well as the conventional four-legged versions.

My mother was an eighteen year old English hair-stylist named Bernice

Who was addicted to Sealtest ice cream and veal scaloppini.

My father would chase pigs around the neighborhood,

Drink Rock N’ Rye whiskey,

And claim that he had been a champion pole-vaulter.

We’d beg him to take us to the Brown Derby

For a chocolate-dipped ice cream cone

And he would say, “Let’s not and say we did.”

We’d tell him that he wasn’t as smart as he thought

Because he wasn’t rich —

And he would just put on a Ralph Kramden smile

and say, “Don’t you wish.”

I spent summers pretending to read comic books

On the neighbor’s front porch,

Begging for spare change from used furniture buyers,

And picking strawberries.

I had a secret place under the porch

Where I learned to meditate and plan my life.

I ran away when I was seven —

Was detained by the railroad police

While loitering around the switchyard,

Then sent to bed with no dinner.

At the age of eight I smoked my first cigarette,

At eleven my first cigar,

Kissed my first lover at twelve,

And stole home at thirteen.

I was able to escape from America when I was eighteen

By impersonating a sub shop owner,

And became a world citizen

After breaking every taboo described in The Book of the Dead.

I learned to trade by losing my shirt 42 times

And by doing marketing work for GeeMeeBeeMee Enterprises.

Eventually I became a trading consultant

After racking up over 5 million Mauritian rupees in unrealized gains.

The Midnight Train

Sometimes we have to take that midnight train

Back to Georgia, Phoenix, or 187th and Webster Ave.

It didn’t work out.

What we thought was going to happen didn’t.

The freeways weren’t free.

The jokers went wild more than once.

Back to basics, again.

Look for another path.

Play it in a different way.

Get with your lover.

She’ll make it better.

You’ll be home free.

The Bag Lady

The Bag Lady

She liked her teachers

Even though they didn’t make sense.

She liked being around others

Even though they didn’t like

Being around her.

She liked to stroll around the city.

So when she arrived at nothingness,

She did what was natural:

Walked alone, walked along,

Picking up things that others might want.

Being outside — out there

Where it all was.

Where it was all happening.

This is life.

People, traffic, trash and treasure.

Why not pick up stuff

That’s still good?

It’s a way to get by

And be part of the whole.

The grocery cart is a good truck,

Office and calling card.

But no one ever calls.

The disease that began at home

And continued in school

Has progressed.

Now she’s scared.

Scared of two-legged animals

And the FBI and the CIA,

The DEA, and the National Security Agency,

As well as the Department of Human Services

And people who hurt.

It all happened so slowly.

A laughing little girl

Who had bad uncles,

And teachers who talked only to groups

Is now sick, paranoid, and hungry,

But free.

Can I Think My Way Out of This?

Can I think my way out of this?

Tolle says no –

I must stop thinking.

Can I read my way out of this?

My counselor says no.

I must take action.

Can I act my way out of this?

Chimeleski says I might

Have a chance.

Can I fondle my way out of this?

Zorba and Dr. Weil say maybe, but Csikszentmihalyi says no –

It’s just filling time – a distraction.

Can I give my way out of this? Juicy says I can.

I guess I could get started with the lady

With leprosy who sits in front of Starbucks on Langsuan.

Can I love my way out of this?

Louie Armstrong says I can – love baby love,

That’s what makes the world go round.

Can I write my way out of this?

Hemingway implies I can’t.

Peter Elbow says I can. I’ll go with Elbow.

If You Can’t Beat ‘Em, Join ‘Em

If You Can’t Beat ‘Em, Join ‘Em

by Joey Schmoeller

My third grade teacher, Mrs. Gladys Newell, who I was in love with, introduced me to the saying, “If you can’t beat ‘em, join ‘em.” Little did I know then how this might come in handy at some point in my life.

For most of my life I have understood and realized that there is much suffering for the majority of mankind. I have seen it personally on the streets of Morocco, Mexico, the Philippines, and a bunch of other countries, including, yes — the United States. I have had great empathy for the suffering of those who are unfortunate through no fault of their own.

I cherished the belief and hope that there was an answer to human starvation, wars, and injustice. I believed that all people wanted a just society – a world where the chances were more than likely that most of us on the planet would be able to live without great suffering. It seemed to me that these things mattered.

These ideas were slowly but surely championed by my mother and modeled by my father. When I got to Kindergarten these same ideas became the rules that our teacher insisted would enable us to get along, work together, and survive as little humans in that small classroom at Pennsylvania Avenue School. Then attending Sunday school at the South Presbyterian Church – I was told that there was a guy – actually more than a guy – but that is the part I never fully understood. We studied this guy who said that a person in need is our neighbor, even if that person doesn’t look like us, or belongs to another group. This guy used an example of coming across a foreign-type person who was in dire straits. He said the most important thing we could do would be to help that person. So I was getting these messages from every direction in my development as a child. It seemed natural to believe that all humanity was working in that direction – to help one another as we pass through this mysterious experience of acquiring life, and then eventually losing it – and passing it on to those that follow – with the hope that they would carry the ball further, just as we were to carry the ball further than our parents, grandparents, ancestors, and well – all previous humans, even maybe back to the Cro-Magnums.

With aging and experience, one realizes that instead of humanity participating in this race to make the world a better place for all God’s children, you’re usually pretty much running alone, and that Mark Twain actually was right – it is a damned human race.

So with the current era’s seeming selfishness, and with the popularity of humiliating others, not caring if our brothers and sisters get medical care when they get sick, giving all the breaks to the people who already were in possession of so many breaks – the “I got mine – you get yours,” philosophy has taken over. With this realization I have concluded that I have one of three options: (1) to fight like hell for what I was taught as a child, (2) to begin to look at the sad state of affairs as laughable, or (3) if I can’t beat ‘em, join ‘em.

I’ve decided to go for number 3. I tried number one for a while, but it is too depressing. I also tried number 2, but somehow had great difficulty laughing over the misfortunes of others. So as of today, I am becoming a Repugnikkkan.

I no longer have to worry about kids who go to bed hungry. I am not going to share the ownership of that problem anymore. As a good Repugnikkkan, I am just going to say, look – it’s the kid’s parent’s responsibility – it’s got nothing to do with me. I’m also not going to worry anymore about 17 and 18 year olds being recruited for the army even before they have a chance to know much about themselves and the world, and get taken right into the meat grinder in some unnecessary war. I am so glad to have that as one less thing to be concerned about. After all, it’s their choice. They swallowed the pill that said that war is where the glory is, and that if you are going to be a man – or a patriotic woman – you will get in line, learn to salute, and do whatever they tell you to do regardless of whether it shocks your conscience or not.

It’s great that the US has set a precedent in ignoring the Geneva Accords – another thing I won’t have to lose any sleep over. I might even take up swearing – it’s like, OK, the world doesn’t like it – then fuck ’em. Torturing people – now there’s something that I never dreamed I’d have to even think about. I don’t know how in the world I believed that everyone was against torture. It was almost like – you’re a human being – you don’t believe in torture – the two go together. And if you do believe in torture you aren’t a human being – you don’t meet the definition. But that’s all gone now. It’s OK to torture – as long as it’s not someone on our side – torture the shit out of them, even if we aren’t sure they’ve done anything. That’s the good thing about torture – even if they haven’t done anything, they will tell us what they have done, even if they haven’t done it – and that absolves us from all guilt toward the act of torturing. The act itself solves the problem regarding the question of whether or not it works. Of course it works – and I am all for it now. In fact, I am not even going to think about how it must feel to be tortured. Certain places will now be off limits to me now though – I will have to make sure that I avoid going to Cambodia to see the killing fields, or to any of the Holocaust Museums, or to Auschwitz – and avoid the War Museum in Ho Chi Minh City. But there are nicer places – there is Cancun and Las Vegas – and a bunch of other places where I can have a lovely time.

© Joey Schmoeller – This is a draft and under no circumstances to be considered final.

I Can’t Be Your Guru

I Can’t Be Your Guru

I don’t know anything for sure.
You may know more than me.
I see too many grays.
You see blacks and whites,
That makes your life simpler.

We Could Go to Buenos Aires

We could go to Buenos Aires

We would drink some local cerveza

And visit Eva Duarte

At the Recoleta;

Have pizza at Romario’s,

And for dinner

Go to the Tenador Libre

On Florida Street.

In the evening we would

Buy jewelry from the lady

Who makes it in her

One room apartment

On CalleVicente Lopez.

She’ll give us a good deal

And she’ll meet us

Again at midnight

And we’ll raise hell

In La Boca.

We’ll dance the tango

With the two Chinese sisters

And they will take us

To the Juniors game

The next day and Maradona

Will show us how he scores

With the locals.

You Wanna Meet Me in La Habana?

You Wanna Meet Me in La Habana?

You wanna meet me in La Habana?

Near Hemingway’s favorite bar

The Floridita…

Which is now an air-cooled

Semi-deserted hideaway?

We’ll meet next door

At the Café de los Farnes

Where we can sit outside

And smoke cigars

All day long

And watch the pretty women

Pass by on the way to…

The laundry… or the bread line

Or just to see their novio.

At night we can go

To Café Monserrate

And view the modern day

Parque zoologico of Western deviants

Demimondaines

And your occasional

Dance aficionado.

We’ll dance with the old man

With the big cigar

And I’ll see that you get home

To your casa particular,

But not until we dance

Our asses off at the Casa de la Cultura.

OK… you agree?

You meet me in La Habana?

The Heathen

The Heathen

 

He don’t know da Bible.

He don’t know da Bhagavad Gita

Or da Torah.

He don’t know da Koran neither.

He never read about da Buddha.

But he knows a good heart

When he sees one.

He blanket-sprays loving kindness

Wherever he goes

Just like da firefighters put out da fire.

He looks with love

And gives to the poor.

He confront politicians

And refuses to get sucked into

The patriotic wars.

His 20/20 eyesight can see that the sick need care

And kids need understanding.

They are thinking about putting him on the no-fly list

Before he causes any more trouble.

Pigeons Pray

Pigeons Pray

Pigeons pray 72 times a day.

They don’t do it to get to the good place.

They do it to get laid by the opposite sex.

It doesn’t always work.

I’ll Cut You Off

I’ll Cut You Off

 

I’ll cut you off in Mexico City,

Casablanca, or Bangkok.

The cutter-offers make traffic

Flow smoothly,

Even though it scares the shit

Out of the tourists.

You just get your nose ahead

Of the other guy,

Make your move,

And everybody’s on their way.

 

Houston, Miami, and LA play by different rules.

Drivers there are packing heat –

Tech 9’s, Glocks, and anything that’ll stimulate

A projectile.

You cut somebody off there

You better hope it’s a grandmother

On Prozac.

Speed

Speed

I know how to hurry.

It’s slowing down that trips me up.

I Have Learned to Wait

I Have Learned to Wait

 

I have learned to wait in traffic jams without cursing.

I have learned to wait for the boss to come without sweating.

I have learned to wait for the light to change without tapping.

I have learned to wait for the pizza man without drooling.

I have learned to wait in the airport security line without complaining.

I Loved That Football

I Loved That Football

 

I was carrying the football.

Friends were blocking for me.

My lover was trying to steal the ball from me.

The football was made of love.

Our love.

I feared she might want to quit my team

And take the football, which was half hers.

Thank God it was only a dream.

That’s Not Our Jimmy

“That’s not our Jimmy.

Something horrible, horrible had to happen to him.”

 

Yeah, he was sent to war.

That’s what happened to him.

War.

You need not have been in one to understand.

The pictures of innocent children

With missing limbs,

The mothers clutching a dying

Or starving baby.

The hell that is created

For a weeping 19 year old

Who thought he was tough.

The toothless grandfather

Looking over the bodies of all his grandchildren.

The homeless veteran with no legs.

The “what happened to Jimmy” husband

Who drinks himself into oblivion each day,

And is a stranger in his own home.

The perfect setup for the next round

Of vengeance; the continuing the war cycle.

No answers you say?

We’ve got answers.

We can find answers.

But they won’t make anybody rich.

They won’t contribute to imperial desires.

They may not even be politically popular

Especially in the minds of those

Who were never trained in resolving human conflict

Peacefully at the personal level.

Yes, we can find answers

To unify humanity –

To pull together and solve

The problems of poverty, war, injustice, and xenophobia.

If you don’t believe it can happen,

Then get out of the way

Of those who are willing to make peace bloom

By removing the causes of war

And establishing systems that can prevent it.

It could take 50 years.

Do you think we have that much time?

The Urban Shaman from New Delhi

The Urban Shaman from New Delhi

He was a mixer.

A taster.

A social rascal.

He took orange juice,

Mixed it with 7-Up

And red wine,

And added some cubes.

The religious-based non-drinkers

Loosened up PDQ, asking for more.

And if they didn’t

He added a little brandy,

While saving a shot of

Jack and Tia for himself.

Your Circle Has a Strong Border

Your Circle Has a Strong Border

When I talk about your sister you get upset.

When I make comments about your neighbors,

You give me a dirty look.

When I impugn people from your city you ignore me.

When I question people from your country

You tell me I’m off base.

When I speak about someone who looks like you

You get uptight.

When I mention that your culture needs a revolution,

You tell me I don’t understand.

When I point out that someone from your continent

Has done some dastardly thing, you say I’m generalizing.

When I tell you that people from my country are paranoid

You agree with me.

Scenes from Nothing to Declare, a screenplay by G. Swimelar and I. Jones

Scenes from the screenplay: Nothing to Declare by G. Swimelar and I. Jones

Characters:

Carlos Sanchez, Private Investigator from Mexico City on assignment in Havana

Fabianis – A Cuban woman, taxi driver

Setting: Havana and Mexico City

Havana, Cuba

Carlos Sanchez takes his blue jeans and guayabera shirt from the bed
and puts them on.
EXT – A STREET IN FRONT OF THE HOTEL — LATE AFTERNOON
Carlos jumps in a cab.
CARLOS SANCHEZ, INVESTIGATOR
Old Havana, por favor.
EXT – INSIDE TAXI CAB – LATE AFTERNOON
The driver takes narrow streets all the way. Carlos is
watching all the Havana street scenes. They come upon the
Plaza de Catedral and the Carlos sees much ambiance in front
of the Patio Restaurant. A Cuban band is playing lively
music, people are sitting at outside tables eating and
drinking, and all sorts of people are dancing to the music —
young, old, couples, people alone. The camera focuses on
one old man with a cigar in his mouth who is visibly swaying
and moving to the music. He is about 80 years old. Many
people are watching him. He looks like he’s in heaven.
CARLOS SANCHEZ, INVESTIGATOR
Por favor, let me out here!
EXT – PLAZA DE CATEDRAL – LATE AFTERNOON
Carlos gets out and surveys the situation. He starts moving
to the music and saunters up to where people are dancing and
he blends in with them. The other dancers are a diverse
group. One lady is dancing with her baby. She and the baby
are black. As they dance, she motions to ask if he can hold
the baby. He does, and he dances with the baby while she
gets something from her pocket book to give to a friend. As
Carlos is dancing, he spots Fabianis, who is sitting alone
at a table near the bar. She is dressed differently — more
elegantly — she returns his look. Carlos gives the baby
back to his mother and goes to Fabianis.
CARLOS SANCHEZ, INVESTIGATOR
Como estas hermosa?
FABIANIS
Bien. And it looks like you are
doing well.

CARLOS SANCHEZ, INVESTIGATOR
Can I buy you a drink?
FABIANIS
Of course.
CARLOS SANCHEZ, INVESTIGATOR
(to the waiter)
Dos Cristales por favor.
(to Fabianis)
I thought you’d be working.
FABIANIS
I wasn’t working when I picked you
up. You were just there. I was
dropping an Italian friend off at
the airport.
CARLOS SANCHEZ, INVESTIGATOR
So you’re not a cabby.
FABIANIS
Yes I am — but I only work at night —
my run starts at midnight.
CARLOS SANCHEZ, INVESTIGATOR
You like driving a cab?
FABIANIS
Are you kidding? You’ll find out
that in Cuba people are often educated
to do one thing but do another.
CARLOS SANCHEZ, INVESTIGATOR
What were you trained to do?
FABIANIS
I have a degree in industrial
management.
CARLOS SANCHEZ, INVESTIGATOR
Why don’t you do that?
FABIANIS
Yeah, and make 6 dollars a month?
The waiter brings the drinks.
FABIANIS (CONT’D)
So what’re YOU doing here? Thank
God you got rid of that suit!

CARLOS SANCHEZ, INVESTIGATOR
I’m investigating a case involving
an American who was here in Havana
on New Year’s Eve — and while he
was here a man was murdered in Cancun —
so I am here to prove his innocence.
FABIANIS
I know the case. I saw it on BBC
World — they didn’t say anything
about Cuba, but everyone here is
talking about it. It involves the
daughter of a big military officer.
CARLOS SANCHEZ, INVESTIGATOR
So far I’m having trouble getting
anybody to talk to me about it.
FABIANIS
And you won’t have any luck either.
CARLOS SANCHEZ, INVESTIGATOR
Why not?
FABIANIS
How much time do you have and how
big is your wallet?
CARLOS SANCHEZ, INVESTIGATOR
Oh, you mean I have to bribe people
to get the information?
FABIANIS
No, but I’M not cheap. What do you
think I’m doing here? Looking for
guys to buy me drinks? Hell no.
CARLOS SANCHEZ, INVESTIGATOR
Are you propositioning me?
FABIANIS
There aren’t any prostitutes in Cuba —
you should know that.
CARLOS SANCHEZ, INVESTIGATOR
So what are you getting at?
FABIANIS
Well…, how would you like a massage?
CARLOS SANCHEZ, INVESTIGATOR
Sounds interesting. How much?

FABIANIS
For Christ-sakes, keep your voice
down! Fifty sounds fair to me.
CARLOS SANCHEZ, INVESTIGATOR
Okay, no problem. So, shall we leave?
FABIANIS
Hey, don’t be in such a hurry. Take
it easy. We’ve got to finish our
beers.
CARLOS SANCHEZ, INVESTIGATOR
So, tell me, what do you know about
the case of the military officer’s
daughter?
FABIANIS
The police caught her with this
American guy in a hotel — and the
colonel is covering it up so it won’t
bring shame on him and his family.
CARLOS SANCHEZ, INVESTIGATOR
Yeah?
FABIANIS
He covered the thing up. You won’t
find out shit. The military runs
this entire place.
CARLOS SANCHEZ, INVESTIGATOR
You mean I won’t get anything out of
any officials?
FABIANIS
No way.
CARLOS SANCHEZ, INVESTIGATOR
And what about civilians, like someone
who may have seen him or served him?
FABIANIS
They might give you info in private —
but they’ll never put anything in
writing or let anyone hear them
telling you anything.
CARLOS SANCHEZ, INVESTIGATOR
Any ideas?

FABIANIS
Hey, this is going to cost you a bit
more than just a massage, cholo!
What you gotta do is convince the
colonel — and you aren’t going to
do that, plus you may end up in one
of our infamous re-education centers
if he hears what you’re up to.
CARLOS SANCHEZ, INVESTIGATOR
So I’m screwed.
FABIANIS
Both you and your client.
CARLOS SANCHEZ, INVESTIGATOR
You ready to go?
FABIANIS
Yeah – give these guys a good tip.
Carlos and Fabianis get up — Carlos throws down a dollar
and the waiter nods his approval. They walk through the
plaza on their way to Fabianis’ place.
FABIANIS (CONT’D)
Ya know, I think you’re the wrong
person for this.
CARLOS SANCHEZ, INVESTIGATOR
What do you mean?
FABIANIS
The only person who’d have a chance
to get to the colonel and stay out
of jail would be an American lady.
CARLOS SANCHEZ, INVESTIGATOR
What? Why?
FABIANIS
Fidel wouldn’t put a gringa in jail
for something like this. It would
be bad press. He’d be pissed big
time at the colonel. You’d never
get into the officer’s club — but a
lady? A lady just might make it.
I’ve been there.
CARLOS SANCHEZ, INVESTIGATOR
You wanna job?

FABIANIS
No way! I got two jobs now and I
don’t need another one — well I do —
but you can forget it.
INT – FABIANIS SMALL APARTMENT — NIGHT
Fabianis and Carlos are relaxing on her bed. Fabianis is
inhaling a cigarette.
CARLOS SANCHEZ, INVESTIGATOR
God, you are something else, Fabianis!
FABIANIS
I think so.
They just lay there for a few moments. Fabianis having her
cigarette and Jose looking up at the ceiling in a pensive,
blissful state.
CARLOS SANCHEZ, INVESTIGATOR
Fabianis, is there any other way to
get access to the colonel without
crashing the officer’s club?
FABIANIS
Forget the colonel. Have you thought
of trying to contact his daughter or
her mother? They say she lives in
Trinidad. The colonel would be pissed —
but you never know what kind of power
the mother might have over the father.
CARLOS SANCHEZ, INVESTIGATOR
Um-hmm.
FABIANIS
I forgot to tell you that there are
rumors that the daughter is pregnant
by this guy, your client.
CARLOS SANCHEZ, INVESTIGATOR
You’re shit’n me!
FABIANIS
Why would I shit you? Anyone who
would dance with a little baby can’t
be all bad.
(pause)
Hey, it’s almost midnight, I’ve got
to start my run.

The two are putting on their clothes and are stepping down a
narrow, home-made ladder to get to the lower level of the
tiny, rustic apartment.
FABIANIS (CONT’D)
Watch your step cholo. Let me go
first.
EXT – FRONT OF FABIANIS BUILDING — NIGHT
There is much ambiance on the very dark street. The street
lights are dimmed. There is a bar full of people on the
corner. The people in it are talking loudly and the music
is fully audible on the street.
FABIANIS
Here’s my number if you’re going to
be around. Meet me tomorrow at the
Cafe Monserrate at 8 and I’ll try to
give you some better info — and you
might want another massage.
(smiles)
CARLOS SANCHEZ, INVESTIGATOR
Good luck tonight with your run.
FABIANIS
If you call me you’ll get Senora
Martinez. Tell her you want me. You
might have to wait five minutes.
She has to get me on another floor.
And don’t just call to chat, she
charges me a dollar for every call —
so make it worth my time, cholo.
Carlos watches as Fabianis climbs into her 1955 red Plymouth
and chugs away. Carlos catches a government-owned cab passing
by.
EXT – SIDEWALK CAFE – ZONA ROSA – MEXICO CITY — AFTERNOON
Two men are seated at a sidewalk cafe in Mexico City. One
man appears to be an American and the other, Mexican. They
are both wearing suits and appear to be around 55 years of
age.
AMERICAN AGENT
There’s a case coming up involving
an American accused of murder in
Cancun.
MEXICAN OFFICIAL
Murder?

AMERICAN AGENT
Yeah. It happened at Club Med.
MEXICAN OFFICIAL
Ah… yes. I know the case.
AMERICAN AGENT
Has the judge been assigned?
MEXICAN OFFICIAL
Not sure. Why?
AMERICAN AGENT
The American’s an engineer with
Lockheed-Martin. He worked on top
secret drone technology.
MEXICAN OFFICIAL
Yeah?
AMERICAN AGENT
What we’re worried about is that
this guy — Holcomb’s his name —
went to Cuba twice. He’s got a Cuban
lover and she’s pregnant. Her
father’s one of Castro’s high echelon
military men. Bottom line – we don’t
like the way this one smells.
MEXICAN OFFICIAL
You think this guy will eventually
end up in Cuba if he beats the rap
and share drone technology?
AMERICAN AGENT
You’re on the right track. Actually
we’re afraid the Cubans may make a
deal with Holcomb through the
Mexicans. The deal would be, “You
give us drone technology and we give
you a tropical island, your lover
and child with all the comforts of
home.”
MEXICAN OFFICIAL
That’s preposterous! The guy’s highly
educated. Americans don’t defect to
Cuba!
AMERICAN AGENT
An American who faces a murder rap
and has a lover in Cuba would gladly
(MORE)

AMERICAN AGENT (CONT’D)
defect to Cuba. This wouldn’t be a
simple defection — to Holcomb it’s
defect or die. They’ve got him by
the balls — in more ways than one.
MEXICAN OFFICIAL
You guys don’t take any risks, do
you?
AMERICAN AGENT
You got it. Even if he doesn’t defect —
just being in Cuba with a military
family puts us at risk. A drone
isn’t just a drone anymore. Holcomb
has the capability to make drones
order breakfast and deliver it
anywhere in the world on a silver
platter.
MEXICAN OFFICIAL
So what are you asking for?
AMERICAN AGENT
Just get the right judge in place.
You’re gonna have to hurry.
MEXICAN OFFICIAL
I’ll see what I can do.
AMERICAN AGENT
You get it done and the funds will
be deposited in Zurich.
EXT – FRONT ENTRANCE OF HOTEL LINCOLN — NIGHT
Carlos’ cab stops at the Hotel Lincoln. Carlos pays the
driver and enters the hotel lobby and walks to the elevator.
INT – CARLOS HOTEL ROOM — NIGHT
Carlos is just getting into bed when he hears a knock at the
door. He jumps up and pulls on his trousers. He goes to
the door and listens. He hears another knock.
CARLOS SANCHEZ, INVESTIGATOR
Who is it?
THUG
Hotel security. Open up please.
Carlos opens the door a crack and a thug barrels in, breaking
the door chain and pushing Carlos to the floor.

Organic Plums

Organic Plums

 

Organic plums are jealous of your skin.

Gourmets chase you in their dreams.

You are oblivious to the potentials

That others pray for.

You are the gift that never arrives.

Watermelon Conversations – Chapter 8 from the book: Soco Chico by G. Swimelar

When Jack and Troy arrived at the beach they found Lalla Khadija placing a large serving dish with watermelon on a small table in the middle of everyone seated. “You’ve arrived just in time,” she said.

Taieb said, “Jack and Troy, I would like to introduce my family… this is my daughter, Souad. These are my sons, Said, Hamid, and Abdelhaq.”

Jack and Troy shook each of their hands, and then sat down on portable folding chairs that were next to the small table.

Hamid said, “We’ve been playing some soccer and hope to work you into a game.”

Troy said, “We’re not that good.”

“Good, then we have a better chance to beat you,” said a smiling Hamid.

Souad asked, “Where are you guys staying?”

Jack said, “At the Waikiki Pension – it’s not far from here.”

“Oh, you’re staying in the old medina. That must be fun,” said Souad.

“Yes, it’s actually quite interesting. We’ve never seen anything like it – the narrow, winding streets – no cars – pretty amazing.”

Souad said, “If you think this old medina is interesting, you must see the ones in Fes and Marrakesh. More than 100,000 people live inside the old medina in Fes.”

Troy said, “You must be kidding.”

Taieb said, “No she’s not. You really must see it. How long are you staying? Abdelhaq works in Fes and you could stay with him if you go there.”

Abdelhaq said, “Yeah, for sure – you are always welcome – and my wife’s a great cook. Do you like Moroccan food?”

Jack said, “Well, actually, I am a little embarrassed to say we really haven’t had any yet.”

“Oh, that’s a shame, stated Lalla Khadija – we will take care of that – we are having couscous a little bit later, at the house. You must come. I’ll also make you my special tajine of chicken, prunes, and honey.”

Troy asked, “What’s a tajine?”

Souad said, “Well, it’s a dish that… well, maybe a bit like a stew – but different. There are many types and we make them in a special kind of dish or pot that we call a tajine. I suppose what is important to know is that there are many kinds of tajines and the best feature is always the taste. Moroccans know how to mix spices together to bring out tastes that you can easily get addicted to.”

“Really?” asked Troy? “I am not sure I like spicy food.”

Souad added with a smile, “I think you are thinking about spicy hot food. Moroccan food is not spicy hot like Thai or Mexican food – it’s spicy tasty.”

“Well, I’d like to try it,” said Jack.

“One thing you must know is that we eat fresh food. Like this watermelon. We don’t eat food that comes out of a can or a box!” exclaimed Taieb. Everyone laughed.

Later Troy played soccer with Said, Hamid, and Abdelhaq and some pickup players that came along the beach, while Jack chatted with Taieb, Lalla Khadija, and Souad under the big umbrella.

“So what are you going to be doing, Jack?” Asked Taieb.

“Well, we are going to go to a professional wrestling match Saturday night. One of the wrestlers invited us. Troy and I wrestled in the States but it was Olympic style wrestling. We are going to go see the professional matches just for fun.”

As the sun was about to set, Jack and Troy helped Taieb’s family gather everything together and they headed to Tahiti Beach where they had some mint tea while waiting for each other to take a shower and change into their street clothes. Jack was disappointed that Bahia was no longer working at the drink stand.

When Jack came out of the cabinee and gave the key to Driss, Driss gave Jack a small envelope and said, “Bahia asked me to give this to you.”

Jack excused himself and went to the restroom where he could read the note in private. It said, “Jack, if you have time I will be at the Aziza Tea Shop and Bakery on Boulevard Pasteur tomorrow around 2 pm. It’s near Café Mauritania.” It was signed “Bahia,” and a smiley face was drawn next to her name.

The Test

… The test of a civilized society is how it deals with the weak, the sick, and the powerless.”
— Garrison Keillor

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Red and Yellow Under Blue Sky — Mii Kon Jai Yen?

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A Scene from the stage play, The Committee… (c) I. Jones & G. Swimelar

ACT 3, SCENE 4

INT. OPEN STAGE WITH A CONFERENCE TABLE AT THE MID-RIGHT, A “PULL UP” BAR IS ON THE LEFT AND SOME OPEN SPACE FROM THE LEFT — LATER

(Tupac, JFK, and Hoffa are on one side of the stage and Tupac is giving them hip hop dance lessons.  Tupac controls the music which is on a jam box.)

TUPAC

Okay, like this… hey, are you sure you guys want to do this?

HOFFA

Hell no!  I want to go back to pull-ups.

JFK

Tupac — you aren’t going to give up on us are you?

TUPAC

Fuck no!  What the hell else do I have to do here in this tank?  At least I can get my own thing going from the music.

(Tupac does a few dance steps.)

Okay, now you guys have to get your shit together.

JFK

I’m trying Tupac!

(As JFK goes through some steps trying to copy Tupac.  Hoffa is also trying to hip hop.)

(The lights dim and the scene closes with the three of them practicing hip hop dancing.)

ACT 3, SCENE 5

INT. OPEN STAGE WITH A CONFERENCE TABLE AT THE MID-RIGHT, A “PULL UP” BAR IS ON THE LEFT AND SOME OPEN SPACE FROM THE LEFT — LATER

(Tupac is taking charge.)

TUPAC

Ok, move the conference table to the side.

(All but JFK, MLK, and Tupac move committee table to the side.)

ELVIS

Hey, is this for real?

TUPAC

It absolutely is — these guys are going to compete in hip hop dancing, and you guys are going to be the judges.  Ok, make room for the contestants!

WALT DISNEY

Shoot, I wish I had my movie camera!

TUPAC

You might be glad you don’t have it after you see this.

HOFFA

I don’t care how I look as long as I win.

MALCOLM X

That’s the idea, Jimmy, “by any means necessary!”

TUPAC

Hey, did you really say that shit?

MALCOLM X

Yeah, I did, Tupac — I’m not sure I’d say it now though, it’s a different era.

TUPAC

Hey don’t be so fast — things are still fucked up.

WALT DISNEY

I could never understand why some people are racist.  I never was.

TUPAC

Yeah, sure Walt, I hear ya, brother.

WALT DISNEY

Hey, let’s get the contest going!

TUPAC

Oh yeah, Jimmy and JFK — go over there — I need to introduce you.

(Hoffa and JFK go to their respective corners.  Tupac takes on the role of a typical announcer of a heavyweight championship fight.)

TUPAC

Ladies and gentlemen…shit, we ain’t got no ladies here!

(pause)

Are you ready to rumble!!!!  We have here two honorable competitors who have agreed to forego gang-banging and pull-up competition in order to compete as gentlemen in the performing arts, which, of course is a more civilized and dignified way to settle differences.

MLK

Why can’t they talk over their differences?

TUPAC

Well, I think they have — this is just for a personal kind of challenge…  I want to emphasize that yours truly is NOT responsible for the actual quality of the performances of these two fine contenders.  OK, will the two contenders please present themselves.

(JFK and Hoffa move to either side of Tupac, who has a microphone in his hand — or somethin’ that can look like or serve as a microphone.)

TUPAC

On my left, we have champion pull-upper, Mr. James R. Hoffa, former President of the International Brotherhood of Teamsters; a labor organizer who dedicated himself, when he wasn’t pissing people off, to the idea that all American workers would be respected and paid a livable wage.  And on my right, the challenger, President John Fitzgerald Kennedy, who needs no introduction —

JFK

Oh, come on, Tupac, give me some sugar too.

TUPAC

OK, this is the man who beat the shit out of Richard M. Nixon in a nationally televised debate.

JFK

That’s more like it.

WALT DISNEY

You’re just lucky that Nixon couldn’t find a three track razor!

(laughs)

TUPAC

Gentlemen, you’ve agreed to a coin toss to determine who will perform first — Jimmy, you call it in the air.

(Tupac tosses a coin.)

HOFFA

Head!

(Tupac catches the coin and slaps it on the back of his hand.)

TUPAC

What do you mean, “head?”  It’s either “heads” or “tails.”

HOFFA

Heads!  Heads!

TUPAC

Tails it is!

HOFFA

Oh shit!

TUPAC

Mr. President, you have your choice — to go first or second.

JFK

I will let Jimmy go first to see what he’s got.

ELVIS

Good decision, Jack.

TUPAC

Hey, no help from the audience!

(looking at Elvis)

Okay, Jimmy, you’re on.

(Tupac puts on the music. Hoffa gets out there and does a fairly good job of hip hop dancing.  He really gets the committee onto their feet!  They are whooping and hollering and cheering.  Jimmy has a big smile on his face and really enjoys playing the crowd.)

TUPAC

Whew!  That wasn’t bad.  All right, Jimmy!  Where the hell did you learn those moves?  I know you didn’t learn that watching American Bandstand!

HOFFA

(trying to catch his breath)

Shoot, I wish I had learned to dance.  I could have had a fuckin’ ball at those union hall get-togethers.

TUPAC

That’s going to be a hard act to beat – but JFK’s got a lot riding on this – so let’s see what he’s got – Mr. President —

(JFK comes out with a hip hop type uniform — long jean shorts or jeans that are obviously too big for him — and he has his underwear showing from the top.)

(The music begins.  JFK starts going through his moves.  Tupac is rolling on the floor — so are the committee members.  JFK stops dancing.)

JFK

Wait a minute, this isn’t the song I practiced with.

HOFFA

Hey, if you’re good you ought to be able to do it to any song!

TUPAC

OK, Mr. Pres — you are right — my mistake — hold on — okay, judges — forget what you just saw — let’s give him another chance.  Here you go —

(JFK starts dancing, but doing really well this time.  The judges are whooping it up and cheering.  Hoffa is showing a look of surprise.  JFK actually does some difficult moves — and does them quite well.  The judges continue to cheer and clap.)

TUPAC (Continued)

Whoa!  I don’t think I was ready for that.  Dude, you must have been practicing when I wasn’t looking — or did you find some stuff around here.

HOFFA

Yeah, we need some drug testing.  This could become an Olympic sport.

TUPAC

Who’s talking about drugs — I was talking about booty!

(smile)

OK – folks — it’s time to vote.

(Lennon passes out ballots and the judges mark them.  Elvis collects them.)

TUPAC (Continued)

Elvis, give them to Dr. King to count.

(MLK counts — and makes a total.)

TUPAC (Continued)

Do we have a winner?

MLK

We most certainly do.

TUPAC

Will both contestants present themselves.

(pause)

Before we hear the verdict, I want to congratulate each contestant on having the guts to get out here and embarrass the shit out of yourself.  This would be like me competing in snow skiing!  Ya done good — and no matter who ever wins —

JOHN LENNON

We love ya both!

TUPAC

Yeah — we love ya both.

HOFFA

Come on — I can take it!

TUPAC

The verdict, Dr. King…

MLK

It was close — just like a supreme court decision — we have a 3 to 2 result.  The winner is John Fitzgerald Kennedy!

(All judges and Tupac surround both competitors and they give each other “high 5’s” then form a bilateral hug — which closes into a whole group hug with appropriate sounds of mutual support.)

Everybody’s Going to Have a Drone

Everybody’s Going to Have a Drone

Pretty soon everyone’ll have a drone.
It’ll be pigeon-sized
And able to fetch, signal, and bomb.
Wimpy liberals will try to control them
But the selfish conservatives
Will say they are protected
By the Constitution.
They’ll say everybody should have one.
Got to protect one’s abode.
It’ll take pictures of all the terrorists
Who could be masquerading as joggers,
And chase mice
And other competitive locomoteurs
Out of the neighborhood.

The Guru from Bali

The Guru from Bali

 

She needed a change.

The spirits were too heavy.

Too local.

Her mind needed some chaos —

Some quantum physics stuff.

So she got that ticket

To New York.

It was to be a three month pilgrimage

That would involve coffee shops,

Churches, discussions, sitting in Washington

Square Park, playing chess with men

Masquerading as derelicts.

She’d hit the 92nd Street Y,

Look into the eyes of a street kid,

And join the Japanese hippies

In the East Village.

Then she’d be ready to go back.

Inspired.  Fulfilled.

Ready to feel the peace

And remember how to be here and now

Before starting, again,

To help others get their bags packed.

Dating Jane Birkin

Dating Jane Birkin

Je t’aime… terraced cafes, operas, blue jeans, beaches, museums, art galleries, sweet white wine, blue doors, coffee shops, walking at night, park benches, raspberry herbal iced tea, art movies/foreign flicks, Eiffel Tower, trains, Parc Montsouris, restaurants on-the-water, motorcycling on the Left Bank, baseball hats and pony tails, bichon frisees, Palais du Festival, sangria, le métro, French Riviera, Cannes, Old Nice, Paris Pigalle, parrots, Italian restaurants, TGV, garlic shrimp, Marseilles, sidewalk cafés, taxis, sky blue swimsuits, jazz clubs, schedules, elegant restaurants, Bain Douche, Monte Carlo, The Main Casino, crêpes, L’Arc de Triomphe, to-do lists, late night crêperies, Thai restaurants, airports, Amber ale, short shorts, and …moi non plus.

Is Jerry Normal?

Is Jerry Normal?

Jerry is hoping that gas prices will go up.

He owns stock in Exxon.

Jerry is hoping people will get sick.

His wife is a pharmacist.

Jerry wants guys to become impotent.

He works for Pfizer.

Jerry won’t drink German beer.

He’s all American.

Jerry lives his life in fear.

He’ll never go to Cambodia

Unless he can take his platoon with him

To keep his paranoia at bay.

Jerry keeps a shotgun in his truck

Just in case a hippy gets smart with him.

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Newborn Lovers

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Modern Shrines

Modern Shrines

 

We’re about to abandon the TV

As our most adored shrine.

It has worn itself out

And has not delivered what it promised.

Besides that, it’s not portable enough.

The new shrine is the iPhone

And if you don’t have one you better get one

Because if you don’t have one…

Well, you’re a dinosaur.

You can’t get to heaven without one.

I’m not shitting you either.

Where Was Mindfulness?

Where Was Mindfulness?

 

Why didn’t they teach it in school?

Was it the paranoid right wing lunatics

Who were afraid their kids

Would become free?

Or were they just allergic to change?

Where was my mindfulness?

How did I miss so much?

How my mother was like

Mona Lisa with massage oil.

How my father made the roosters crow.

Where did I put the keys?

How could I leave the bags behind?

The present was always devalued

Just like a domestic beer.

The Sky’s the Limit

The Sky’s the Limit

 

A rich nobleman wanted to construct

An invisible building

Where no one would find him.

He went to an island

Where it never gets cloudy

And he put the building on stilts

And painted it sky blue.

A plane flew into it

And he had to escape in his underwear.

On his way out of the building

A little kid asked him if he wanted a shoeshine.

The Culture Criminals

The Culture Criminals

 

The culture criminals

Are tough on children.

With the boys, they keep them on their toes

By Insinuating that they don’t have the courage

To be men.

Some boys get suckered into proving themselves,

And instead of growing up,

Become culture criminals as well.

 

The Sweet Life at Central World

The Sweet Life at Central World

Twilight at Bert’s Café
On Central World Square
The eggplant sandwich
With sundried you know whats
And other fresh and tasties
Along with a Heineken
Watching all the beautiful people
And the occasional cherub
While Khun Tum adds a blueberry tortilla to my bill
And I eat it as slowly as it takes a taxi
To go three blocks in a Bangkok traffic jam.

Doctor Mainstream

Doctor Mainstream

Don’t come in here with a shopping list of tests you want.
I’m just a prostate man.
I check your prostate with my index finger
And order you a PSA test.
That’s it.
I don’t even know what C-Reactive Protein is.
You’re going to have to go somewhere else for that.

The God of False Prophets

The God of False Prophets

Sorry if you weren’t born in the right place
Or into the right family –
But you should have listened to my reps
Who were out there telling you how
To get to the good place.
Oh, excuse me, you’re from the jungles of Borneo?
That’s too bad.
My reps didn’t make it over there,
So you lose.
In fact, you’ll burn in hell for eternity.
We’ve got mass murderers who confessed
On their death bed, so they’ll make it through the pearly gates
But you weren’t lucky enough to know how to do that.
Tough luck.

Adolph Lived Downstairs

Adolph Lived Downstairs

 

Adolph didn’t commit suicide.

He lived a lonely life downstairs in the garage apartment

Below my garconiere in Casablanca.

He had plastic surgery done at the sex change clinic on Rue La Moriciere

And a Canadian passport.

Every time he got drunk he attempted to set up a truth commission in the elevator,

But it didn’t have a mirror.

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Transforming Work

That dirty word… work,

 Has finally become play. 

A scattered operational style

Has succumbed to a blissful routine.

Having autonomy is the difference

Between a real fire and a false alarm;

A smile verses an indifferent look.

Perfunctory work scatters your energy across 12 acres of tundra,

Then passion sends you down South Mountain like a water park chute.

 

Someday

Someday

 

Someday you’ll be searching out museums like an auditor looking for a receipt.

You’ll swim through the classics,

And make milk toast out of Shakespeare.

Your passion will become inflamed with the thought of turning mud huts into urban cribs,

And you’ll even mix French syllables with an interfering English tongue.

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Mona

Mona

Mona Lisa just passed by.
She has changed her dress
And her slight smile
Has turned into a determined look with a mission.
I’m sure they’ll be raising the entry price
At the Louvre.

Negatorally Independent

Negatorally Independent

I have a policy of never…
I have plans…
Sorry, I have another commitment.
There’s a conflict.
Not now.
That doesn’t work for me.
Maybe next time.
God, I’d love to, but…
Hell, no.
Are you kidding?
Don’t go there.
I’ve got an appointment.
I’m not allowed to.
It costs too much.
Let’s not and say we did.

Elevator Connection III

Elevator Connection III

 

It’s just me and an older woman.

We’re going down.

We get to 2nd floor parking.

She takes a deep breath…, and says,

“Got to get in there and work…,

Gotta pay the bills.”

And I’m thinking,

“Alaikum Salaam.”

The Race

The Race

 It’s 2 p.m. in the fitness center —

Empty as a beggar’s cup on Soi Langsuan.

The rat race continues in the tall buildings that encroach the green.

The winners are scheduled to show up at six.

OK, maybe seven.

Elevator Connection I

Elevator Connection I

 In the elevator, alone

On Friday the 13th.

My doc just told me

I might have cancer.

Took a biopsy.

Will know in two weeks.

I’m thinking I’m a dead man.

I’m starting to close the books.

An 85 year old man enters the elevator.

I’m encased in reflecting on my impending death,

 Wondering how it will unfold.

The elevator stops.

The doors open.

The old man starts to go out — then stops,

Turns around, looks me square in the eyes,

And says,

“And don’t you believe any of that Friday the 13th crap either!”

The door closes.

Thanks Guardian Angel, I needed that.

Why are you always there for me?

Killing a Day / Time is Not Money

Killing a Day / Time is Not Money

 Sleep in the morning like a kid

Who doesn’t want to get up

and go to school.

Check email like a postal clerk

On valium.

Surf the web like a slacker from Austin.

Read the news like a lazy station master.

Check the markets like a big city bookie.

Workout like Arnold’s forgotten cousin.

Do some yoga like you’re Swami Muktananda’s pet worm.

Get something to eat at a sidewalk vendor who thinks he’s a 5 star chef.

Write like you have invaded Walt Whitman’s soul.

Have your aperitif like you are the former governor of Agadir.

Decide who you are going to dine with like you’re a movie director casting an adventure film.

Watch a movie like Siskel and Ebert.

Shoot the shit like the Car Talk brothers.

Go to bed like you are Bob Guccione.

It’s Your Move

It’s Your Move

 

It’s Your Move

Watcha gonna do?

It’s your move.

You gonna mobilize your queen?

Protect your king?

Start a new business?

Or just vegetate?

It’s your move.

A Paradisiacal Moment

I was tired of my day-to-day existence… lonely… cold… wet… the long hours… impersonal interactions… concrete and asphalt. The sky was dark. Rain was coming down as I waited for the cab to pull up. Water splashed on my shoes. There was a Plexiglas divider separating the driver and me. A few small holes drilled into the Plexiglas enabled the driver to hear me when I told him, “the airport.” There was a little drawer where I would put the fare at the end of the run, enabling the driver to obtain the money without my reaching into his lifespace. Messages inside the cab bombarded my spirit. Don’t talk to the driver. No smoking. Do not slam the door. No food. No dogs. Will not cash anything higher than a 20. Do not roll down window. Not responsible for items left in cab. Fasten your seatbelt. There was no seatbelt. I sat back, stressed out from packing and cleaning the apartment so I could get my security deposit back. I closed my eyes and sat completely still for several moments. I needed that. I opened my eyes and found myself encased in the same negative environment, but something had changed inside me. I reflected on the rain coming down, the dark sky, and the negative environment, but in spite of it all, a blissful thought entered my mind: I realized that I would miss all this. It was a psychic gift that came from deeply within. I knew that someday I would be relating to friends what a wonderful experience it had been to be here. I reached into my day bag and pulled out my yellow tinted glasses. The sun appeared to permeate my small space, and it was with a sense of melancholy that I realized that this, indeed, would be a moment that I would remember as paradisiacal.

Eddie: The Child Who Came in From the Cold

Eddie…
… the child who came in from the cold…

It was my first year teaching elementary school after serving two years teaching in the Peace Corps in Morocco. I took over a 6th grade class in Corning, New York, in March.

As I entered the school each morning, I interacted with children as I walked down the hallway on my way to my classroom. In those days, I was too inexperienced to understand the power of targeting a child who needed positive involvement from an adult before school. Nevertheless, I did believe that fleeting moments – even seconds – could positively impact a child and help him or her get the day started on the right foot. So at that stage in my career, I wasn’t targeting anyone, just being cordial.

However, there was one child who “found me” during those early morning moments. It was Eddie. Eddie wasn’t one of my students. He was in fourth grade.

I noticed that other children avoided Eddie. He seemed to accept it, apparently making up his mind that peer relationships were not going to work for him. Some of the children made fun of Eddie. If I saw it, I intervened. At that stage in my career, I didn’t know how to systematically resolve conflicts between students.
(See Appendix C for details on one way to resolve conflicts between students.) Sure, I could do the “business as usual” thing and lecture them, warn them, or give them a consequence. Later I learned that those techniques were not very effective in resolving a problem for the long term. They were only stop-gap “man-on-the-street” measures.

“Man-on-the-Street” Techniques

These are methods, techniques, or measures that might be used by an untrained teacher, hence the idea of “the man-in-the-street.” Teachers who are untrained (who perhaps have a B.A. and have just gone through an eight week crash course in teaching) often resort to “man-in-the-street” methods, simply because that is the best they know how to do. Child development has a broad knowledge base – and it is impossible to pick up “enough” to enable one to be an effective teacher in a crash course. It’s like teaching someone to fly a plane once it’s in the air, but not teach them how to take off or land, or deal with turbulence.

Eddie seemed to seek out adults to interact with rather than other children, perhaps thinking that it would result in less loss of dignity, even though when he did interact with teachers he maintained a concerned, guarded expression, being careful about saying the right thing, so as to not get chewed out about something.

Eddie seemed almost too free with me. I wondered if that was good. I felt a bit naïve about the kind of relationships that teachers were supposed to establish with students. Other teachers smiled when they saw me listening to Eddie. They would roll their eyes at me, seemingly signifying that Eddie was wasting my time or telling me some tall tales. I didn’t let it change my attitude about the importance of being open with children. I was experimenting with the issue of the degree of “familiarity” one should establish — formal verses informal relationships that we construct with children, and I was trying to figure out what was most helpful or effective. My gut feeling was that I had to be genuine and involved with any child with whom I came into contact with, as part of my job.

After Eddie got to know me from those short early morning chats, I found him hanging around my classroom door at the end of the school day. He would stick his head inside as the last students were on their way out. The first time he did this, he looked around and said, “You know, that fish tank’s a mess. You’ve got a bunch of snails in there and the water needs cleaning. And you can’t just put tap water in there – it’s got too much chlorine in it — it could hurt the fish.” He didn’t immediately ask if he could take it over, but he continued telling me more about aquariums and how they function. He explained about the growth of the snails, the color of the water, and why you had to let the tap water sit for a while before introducing it into the aquarium. Eddie soon had me convinced of my profound ignorance concerning aquariums. He also implied that it was my responsibility to know about these things – that it mattered. He had told me more than I had ever known about tropical fish, aquariums, and how one provides proper maintenance for them.

Soon Eddie had me begging him to take over the aquarium. And take it over he did. He stayed after school as long as I would let him, and worked on it, conversing with me as we both worked. I was usually grading papers. (In those days I didn’t know how one could assess students while they were working and provide timely feedback during the school day.)

Providing Timely Feedback to Students

In my early teaching days, I killed myself every night dragging papers home to correct or grade. I had agreed to live for my students, but not die for them. I had a lovely little daughter and a sweet wife at home – and they deserved my time and attention also. So this was a challenge: how to give my students timely feedback without carting home all the papers. Even when I did a good job of correcting/grading papers, the feedback was often (1) too late, (2) not understood by the student, and (3) did not provide the student with a model for improving their proficiency.

It was later that I learned how to give my students timely, valuable feedback and have time for everything else in my life. It mostly had to do with switching from a traditionally-taught/workbook/basal/teacher-centered/sage on the stage approach, to a workshop/student-centered approach that involved lots of conferring with individual students and the use of modern teaching methods such as mini lessons, activity times, sharing sessions, individual conferences, running records, retellings, modeling, and so forth. Once I learned about these more progressive strategies, my students began to make more progress, were happier, and I knew exactly where everyone was and what they needed.

Eddie started out with a complete overhaul of the aquarium. He dumped all of the stones into the sink to clean them. It was a big mess and I was wondering if I had made a mistake by agreeing to let him take it over. But he got it all working well and everyone began to enjoy the aquarium again. Some children also realized that Eddie was an expert at something, and I believe it raised, at least a bit, his prestige among some of the students.

There were some teachers who were wondering what I was doing, bothering with a child who was not one of my students. They might not have understood that I was the one benefitting.

Eddie loved to laugh. He smiled a lot and enjoyed telling immature and interactive jokes. He tried to catch me with them. Like, for example, “Are you PT?” If I answered, “Yes,” he would then say out loud, “Oh, you’re potty trained?” If I answered, “No,” his response was, “Oh you’re not potty trained!” Eddie was a socially inexperienced, harmless kind of a kid, and was considered a child with “special needs.”

Youngsters with Special Needs
There are quite a few categories of students with special needs. This could include children who qualify for special education services (which itself has many categories of qualification and service), as well as students who are disadvantaged based on below poverty-level family income, students who are believed to be gifted and talented, children who may have a physical disability, or who have been determined to have a learning disability that does not qualify for special education services.

After the aquarium was running smoothly, and only needed light maintenance, Eddie occasionally dropped by after school to tell me about reptiles and amphibians – creatures that I knew very little about. I had very little interest in reptiles and amphibians, but as I listened to Eddie share facts about them, they became more interesting to me.

When all the classes switched for reading first period in the morning, I noticed that Eddie reported across the hallway to Mr. Bob McDaniel’s room. I looked in a couple of times and saw that there were only about eight to ten students there. It was obviously a reading class for students with special needs. Bob told me that it was the class for non-readers, giving me a roll of the eyes and an expression that said, “God, I hope this doesn’t last much longer.”

Non-Reader (faux term)

The term “non-reader” is a faux term that was used in the past to describe a child who was having serious difficulty learning how to read in school. Faye Bolton has suggested a more accurate term: “inexperienced reader.” Some people have used the term “struggling reader,” but reading doesn’t have to be a struggle. I agree with Faye that it has more to do with experience.

Bob worked hard with his students, however. He had all kinds of exercises that they worked on, and an SRA Kit, as well as other materials.

SRA Kit
Although this kit has gone through many revisions and updates, in the early 70’s it consisted of a box containing a variety of written texts that were color-coded by reading level. Alongside the reading selections (which were glossy folders) was another
section inside the box which contained the answers to questions at the end of each story. These could be used by the student or teacher to check the answers. As students were successful with responses to the questions, they could “move up” in their color (reading level) and attempt more difficult reading selections. In the early 70’s no one knew how to take a running record or a retelling – so the teacher never knew what reading strategies a child had under control – and what strategies the child needed to see modeled. It was just read, respond, and check the answers.

At the end of the school year, the intermediate level faculty had a meeting to decide who would be assigned to teach the various leveled reading groups the following year. Bob Mc Daniel spoke up, “You know, I have had the non-readers in resource for four years now, and I think it’s time for someone else to take over. Greg is the new guy on the block and I think it would be a good class for him.”

In my naiveté, I didn’t see any problem with it. I didn’t know how I would teach them, but I figured that I would use the same materials that Bob was using. So I said I’d take them as long as Bob provided me with some information about how he ran the class. He responded, “Oh, don’t worry about that, I’ll give you everything you need.” The meeting ended shortly after we got that out of the way. I guess that was the main issue that everyone wanted to resolve.

When I received the roster of students in my new reading group, I noticed that Eddie had a sister who was two years behind him, who was also in the class.

When the next school year rolled around, Bob gave me all the materials that he used with the “non-readers,” and explained how he ran the class. There seemed to be two main parts to the way he ran the class: a skills lesson, with worksheets to fill out – and when the kids finished their worksheets they could go to the SRA box and choose a story from “their color,” then complete the multiple-choice questions at the end of the story – and then bring their answers to me and I’d check their work to see how they did. I’d tell the kids how great they were doing, and when checking their answers, I only marked the ones they got right. They would smile and get this warm look on their faces. Before they went back to get another story to read, they liked to chat for a couple of minutes. We talked about the things that interested them. Eddie was the oldest student in the class and the one who talked the most. He shared his enthusiasm and knowledge about reptiles and amphibians with everyone. He did such a good job that the other children regarded him as an in-house expert. They got more deeply interested in this topic, so we made library visits to look for books on these creatures. We read them together and Eddie explained all the details.

Each child was encouraged to pursue his or her own interest. My goal was to make each class an interesting, enjoyable, and productive experience. When report card time came, they all got A’s. I didn’t hear anything about it the first time, but when Eddie got an A the second time, the principal came to visit me. He said, “Greg, some of the teachers are questioning why you are giving Eddie A’s in reading. He gets his report card and runs all around the school showing it to everyone. The teachers are afraid that the other kids are wondering how he is getting A’s – everyone knows he can’t read.”

I responded, “But he can read. He works his tail off in here. He works as hard in here as any kid in the building.”

“Yes, and I think it’s great. You are doing a great job with Eddie. You are building him up and I can see that he is changing. But could you give him an “A” for his reading grade, but indicate a grade level that reflects his actual reading level instead of the grade that he is in?

“Do you think I should do that?”

“Yes, I think it would be a good compromise and it would reflect where he really is, and we can defend that.”

I said, “OK, if he keeps working as hard as he has been, and continues to make great progress, he’ll get the ‘A’ and I will emphasize that that is the important grade.”

Grades
Grades aren’t necessarily bad in and of themselves. It’s what we do with grades that can cause problems for children. A grade is simply a symbol on paper that is supposed to tell us how a child is doing in school. But we often don’t know what is in the teacher’s head, and how the grade was arrived at. Many teachers have elaborate systems fully mapped out and can tell you exactly how each grade was arrived at and they can defend their decision. That still doesn’t tell us much about what a child has control over, and what the child needs to see modeled, and whether or not someone is going to coach him to ensure success. Grades are one way to report student behaviors, responses, efforts, etc. They are part of the factory approach to schooling. They make it all look so simple, when in fact things are much more abstract and complicated in reality.

Eddie continued to bring in books in his areas of interest. I brought books to class that I thought would interest him and the other children. The kids appeared to enjoy coming to reading class. I treated them just like I treat my own friends. Some of the shy, reserved, “Do I belong here?” facial expressions began to disappear and were replaced with genuine smiles. They began to let their hair down and relax – and they started to love books and reading.

The only other thing the principal had to talk to me about was when we had a paper airplane flying contest. We were reading a book that had diagrams of some of the most creative paper airplanes that had been designed by engineers. The principal said, “Just make sure you have an objective.” The principal was on my side. He enabled me to continue to look for innovative ways to make the class interesting and productive. I knew that he was running interference for me, placating the old guard, while I tried to help Eddie and the others get a life, their life.

I was using a book by Herbert Kohl to guide my teaching of Eddie’s class. It was entitled, Reading, How to.

By the end of the year Eddie was reading the World Book Encyclopedia articles on reptiles and amphibians. I cannot describe the feeling I had about the progress he had made. The non-reader label had been hanging over his head for a long time and was humiliating for him. Reading was helping him gain back some of his self-respect. It was also helping him learn more about his first love: reptiles and amphibians. Eddie later found that his ability to read about reptiles and amphibians could be transferred to other topics and interests.

Eddie taught me a lot that year. I think the recipe to his success as a student and my success as a teacher was to:

• Construct a mutually-respectful relationship
• Be a listener and supporter
• Encourage children to follow their interests and help them develop more interests
• Bring in interesting books that mean something to the children you are working with
• Give children good grades; that is, evaluate them for a grade when they are ready to show mastery or increased proficiency
• Make time for students, especially if they are at-risk and are wanting to spend time with you
• Don’t let others discourage you from supporting a child in a way that we would want teachers to support our own child
• Interact with the children just like you interact with your own friends
• Read to the kids, or do their reading for them until they can take over
• Have fun, make the class one that kids can’t wait to get to
• Meet with the students’ parents and tell them (and show them) what their child can do and how far he/she has come; and lay out an optimistic plan for their continued progress. Some people might say it should be a “realistic plan” not an optimistic plan. I disagree. If you are relating to a child, helping him or her do things that connect to the goals he or she has for his own life, then it will work – and the parents of at-risk children have heard the “realistic plan” verbiage ad nauseam. The word “realistic” is sometimes a code word for having low expectations for a child.

A couple of years after Eddie graduated from our elementary school and was attending junior high, I was stranded on the side of the road in a freezing snow storm with a flat tire. A lot of people passed by, as I struggled to loosen the frozen lug nuts, to get the wheel off. Eddie came along. I didn’t recognize him at first. He had the hood to his winter coat up and pulled around his face, and his cheeks were bright red. He said, “Hey, you got a little problem there, don’t you?” I smiled and asked, “Do I know you?” He said, “Mr. Swimelar, it’s Eddie – don’t you recognize me?” He loosened up his hood so I could see his face.

We discussed my predicament and came up with a plan to work together to get the wheel off. It wasn’t easy, but we got the tire changed.

Several years after I had known Eddie, one evening, when a couple of my teaching friends and I were having a curriculum review session at a local working class bar, a man came up to me and said, “Are you Mr. Swimelar?” I said, “Yes, I am.” He said, “I’m Eddie’s father – I just want to thank you. School was a nightmare for Eddie until you came along.”

That was payday for me.

Lisbon, Portugal

Lisbon

Behind Rossio Square, I found a tiny bar with an open front.  People were standing around sipping on a small glass of dark liquid.  I went into the bar and asked for one of the drinks, and found it was a ginger liqueur, served on a bed of wild cherries.  

I sipped mine out front with the other folks, enjoying the feeling of drinking right on the street and imagining myself teasing the police.  As I sipped, a derelict that had not had a shampoo in at least three weeks walked up holding the arm of a three-year-old girl.  The girl was holding a small ice cream cone with both hands.  The man told her to hold the cone in one hand and with the other take a small plastic bag from him.  She took the bag and he yelled at her about the ice cream.  

“Lick it!!!  If you don’t eat it I’ll take it away from you!!!” He yelled.  “Stand there!!!  Don’t you go anywhere!!!”  I was ready to grab the guy by the throat and teach him a lesson or two, but I thought it might further traumatize the little girl.

She took it all in stride.  She knew he was full of shit.  

He got out his wallet to check his holdings, looking first in the change pocket — nothing — then he pulled out the only paper script he had — a ten euro note, then he bellied up to the bar for a ginger liqueur.  

He downed it in one swallow, then came back to the little girl — and mumbled a command while he took his plastic bag back from her.  As they walked away, an elderly Portuguese man who had been watching them looked at me and shook his head.  I downed my ginger liqueur and chewed on a couple of the cherries, letting the man and the little girl get about fifty feet ahead, then I put the glass on the bar and slowly followed them.  They went to an apartment building up a little hill to the right, next to a Telefonica at number 6.  He did not have a key — he had to push the ringer to get buzzed in.  I hoped whoever was in the apartment had more sense and was better grounded, for the little girl’s sake.

I went back to my hotel and did some writing, then  thought – I need to go see Bairro Alto – so I put on my shoes and headed out, grabbing a taxi for Rua Diario des Noticias.  

When I got in Bairro Alto, I looked around for a good restaurant – and decided that BarAlto looked inviting.  I had the vegetarian paella and a half bottle of Manzarat red tinto wine, along with some bread and brown olives.

After that, I strolled around Bairro Alto, looking in doorways, peeking in Fado joints, restaurants, bookshops, and bars.  

Finally, I found a bar with a Cuban motif.  I ordered a small beer and talked to Maria, who was standing at the bar having a beer.  She had on a sexy white dress that revealed part of her cleavage and her tummy.  While we talked, a group of French sailors were busy chatting, yelling, smoking Cuban cigars, dancing with the wait-help, and generally carousing and making a nuisance of themselves.  I carried on a conversation with one of the sailors from Marseille who was a bit embarrassed with the loud antics of his compatriots.  

Maria revealed that she was from Brazil – Recife.  She went on and on about how much she loved Brazil and missed it so much – as everyone I’ve met from Brazil does.  

We had another beer – and then she said she would like to take me to a Brazilian bar where we could hear some decent music.  

We walked through the narrow streets, with most people staring at Maria as we passed.  I had to admit to myself that her get-up was a bit risqué.  It was formal, elegant, and yet revealed body parts – all which was quite unusual.  But I didn’t care.  To me she was the quintessential Suzanne that Leonard Cohen had invented – the one who took lovers down to the river and fed them tea and oranges that came all the way from China.

Maria pretty much told me her life history.  She worked for a travel agency in Lisbon.  She had been in Lisbon for three years.  She said when people hear she is from Brazil they automatically think she is a prostitute.  She was tired of guys using her, just wanting sex, she said.  

Recently she flew to Tenerife to see her German boyfriend and he turned out to be a Nazi.  She said he bit her on her ass and on her breasts and left marks.  She said she was held hostage.  He would not allow her to leave.  

As we entered the Brazilian bar, we passed a guitarist/singer who was playing just inside the door.  We walked toward the back until we found a place at the bar.  A couple of times Maria walked to the musician to request a song.  One of her requests was The Girl from Ipanema.  

We had a beer or two in that place, and then decided to leave.  We walked down the hill – down many steps and inclines until we got to The Paseo – the Grand Boulevard.  She had a room near Restoradores Square.  I walked her to her building and could see that just inside the door a young woman was sitting at a desk to sign in people.  It looked like a college dormitory.  Maria gave me her mobile number and said she was going to Estoril Beach the next day and wanted me to go with her.  She added that she loved the beach, but hated it because all the men think she is so sexy and will not leave her alone.

I passed on her offer, even though it sounded like it could be an interesting experience.  I am pretty sure she had a skimpy string bikini from Brazil which was going to overwhelm everyone on the beach, and that the vicious cycle of men wanting her for sex, and her fighting them off would continue.

Elmira, New York

I wasn’t that excited about going to the Remington Rand factory outing even though everything was free – all the food, the beer – everything. It only happened one time a year, always in the summer – the very best time to be in Elmira, New York.

While the prospect of free food and beer was tempting, the problem was I had no one to go with. I did not really know that many people who worked at the Remington Rand typewriter factory. Most of the people I met there were old farts who had worked there forever. I did not know if my new lunch buddies would make it. It was fun to chat with them during lunch in the factory canteen, but I had not really become friends outside of that twenty-five minutes when we had to huff down our lunches.

I kind of hoped I would run into Nicky Blue, my favorite lunch person. She had just bought a brand new Mustang convertible – and I could see myself riding in that thing out on Route 17 with the wind blowing through my hair.

Since I had nothing else to do, I got into the Rambler and headed out for South Main Street. I figured I’d just go in, get something to eat and drink, and not hang around.

The outing was in a huge field. It was a field where I had played intermediate league baseball several years earlier. With all the people gathered, one could not make out that it was also a baseball field.

I was getting my first beer at one of the stands and felt a light tap on my shoulder. I turned around and there was Nina Marcuse with a big smile on her face. She was like the Sophia Loren of the “other side of the tracks” in our high school – and a couple of years younger than me. Because we were from the Southside, we were all actually from “the other side of the tracks,” but we didn’t know it. Pretty much all of us were oblivious to the realities of socio-economic stratification at that time.

Every guy in school dreamed of being with Nina and probably had wet dreams about being with her. She and I bonded instantly. I guess she had hesitated to come to the factory outing also, maybe thinking that she would not find anyone she knew. So somehow, right from that first moment, without saying so exactly, we both knew that we were going to “hang together” and have a blast at the outing.

If getting drunk together was in the cards, so be it. In those days there was no shame or serious consequence to getting drunk – or even getting drunk and driving. The only real consequence was getting killed in a car wreck, and we already had more than several from our high school who had been killed in wrecks – but we didn’t think about that. That’s the way it was. And in the working class cities of the northeast, it was the norm.

It wasn’t long before Nina and I were walking around the crowded grounds with our arms around each other. We were in heaven. When they announced that the outing had come to an end there was no way that we were going to separate ourselves from the life that was unfolding on that day. We took off in my grandfather’s Rambler and drove around – ending up at Eldridge Park. We had a riot there getting on many of the rides. On the roller coaster, Nina squeezed me so tightly I couldn’t breathe. In the spook house, she put her tongue so far down my throat I thought I was going to choke. I felt like the heavens had opened up and I had been accepted into the good place.

The time at the amusement park helped us to get a second wind from the beers we drank at the outing. When it got dark we decided to move on. We went to Myhalyk’s – a restaurant/dance venue – and we danced our asses off. When a slow one came on we glued ourselves to each other and sensuously swayed in tandem, bringing up passionate bodily reactions, but we were still both (at least me) inexperienced in the ultimate point in the art of physical love.

When it got late I drove her home. Outside her house, which was rather run-down, I yanked on the seat lever of the Rambler and the seats slammed back shocking the hell out of Nina. I thought we were headed in a love-making direction, but it was an immature move on my part. Nina, being much more sophisticated than me, preferred that we go into her house. So we got out of the car and entered her living room — and immediately landed on the couch.

We both kept our clothes on and humped like Zimbabwan baboons in heat. We were so wildly driven that Nina’s pants ripped right up the seam of her crotch. I wanted to marry this girl – right then. That’s when she told me about her thirty-five year old boyfriend.

“What? You serious?”
“Yeah, I like you, but I am going with this guy. He takes good care of me.”
“Well, I can take care of you too.”

She gave me a huge hug and said, “Well… I had a great time with you.”

I slowly drove back to my parent’s place, and realized that what had just happened was a poignant way to end the summer. I also realized that I was in no position to take care of anybody. Maybe not even myself.

The City

“Everybody living in a city should be able to see a tree from their own window… They should have no trouble finding a bench in a public space to sit on, or finding a place for their children to play no more than a few minutes from their home. These should all be basic human rights.”
Richard Rogers

The Tribal Leader’s Warning

The Tribal Leader’s Warning

Don’t leave our tribe.

You’ll ruin your life.

You’ll get out there and meet people

Who aren’t like us.

They’ll put different ideas into your head.

They’ll have you doing strange things

That will feel weird,

But you’ll get used to it

And believe it’s normal.

They are not our ways.

You’ll be poisoned.

And when you come back,

If you come back,

You won’t be accepted here.

You’ll be an outcast.

Not because of us, but because of you.

You won’t be understood.

Our people will not understand

How you can accept others

As our equals.

Teaching Children Who Have Given Up

Teaching Children Who Have Given Up

 Teacher Problem: 

“I have worked with some really unmotivated children who I have failed to reach, and I don’t believe your suggestions will work.”

Greg’s Response: 

I am guessing that you have had experience working with, or observing children who have given up and who have perhaps exhibited some anti-social behavior,  or some sort of learning problem.

I have observed children who exhibit low levels of motivation and, indeed, appear to be learning disabled, emotional disturbed, non-complaint, and so forth.  It has been my experience, over a number of years that these same children respond positively to an environment that respects their experiences and concerns, and which helps them succeed at their specific “zone of proximal development.”

I have not seen these children benefit from either a traditional classroom environment, nor from any “special” pull-out program that was designed to meet their needs.  However, I have seen these children excel in a workshop environment when there is a teacher who is well-trained and who has a belief in the conditions of learning that are described by Brian Cambourne.

Children are lucky if they get to experience what we sometimes call “good first teaching.”  The children who don’t get it, and who tend to get confused with the abstractions and often impersonal nature of a traditional learning environment often give up and decide they are out of the game, becoming behavior problems, learning to become helpless, or becoming a confusion to the adults around them.  If a child misses an opportunity for “good first teaching” in Kindergarten, 1st grade, and 2nd grade — approaches must be made to bring the child back to who he or she really is.  Sometimes these children get suckered into taking on a persona that makes them appear defective.  They often become self-involved in failure.  If these children are not jump-started (of course without blowing their cover) , the consequences can be catastrophic for the child and his family, in terms of the child’s mental health and limited options in this society — options for emotional growth, employment opportunities, opportunities for advanced study, and the wherewithal to become an effective parent and a contributing citizen.

The key to jump-starting a child who is having serious difficulty is two-fold:

(1) Re-introducing the child to the capable individual that he is — this often comes from spending high quality moments with the child in an arena that does not overwhelm him or her with concerns of school.  Sometimes this can happen on the playground, the basketball court, before school, after school – or working collaboratively on something, like an aquarium.  It also involves conversations with the child about real life —  like about flat tires on bicycles, football cards, dancing, music, surfing, etc.  Once a sense of trust begins to develop between the child and at least one school adult then…

(2) …the child is ready to get involved in things like “reading to, with, and by,” and writing his or her own books either through a writing process where he receives support, or with a technique called “innovation on text.”

We know enough now to reach every child, but there are no silver bullets or quick fixes.  Effective child development takes time.  If the child can talk — he can learn to read and write – under the right conditions as long as he has a teacher who is cognizant of the “principles of engagement.”

Something that reminds me of the promise of success for children who are experiencing difficulty is a quote (I’ll paraphrase) by Vygotsky: “What a child can do with help today, he can do on his own tomorrow.”  This statement summarizes Vygotsky’s theory of the “zone of proximal development.”  It requires us to adjust what we are doing to meet the child where he is — NOT where the curriculum is, or where someone working in some office in Kansas City who writes textbooks thinks the kid ought to be.  This is why it is so important that our kids have “up-to-date, with-it” teachers.

Is it easy to deal with a kid who has given up?  You know the answer.  It can be challenging as well as frustrating.  But with a lot of patience and faith, and using good theory and research, it can be done – and must be done.